I was sitting and listening to the rock music I listened to as a teenager in one of those rare moments of inactivity in between other moments. With headphones in my ears and sitting on my bed I closed my eyes and remembered listening to these same songs in my angsty youth. I tried to imagine myself sitting on the bed in my parents' house being a teenager and feeling the emotions I felt then. But the emotions I feel now for this music are just echoes. And I can't even get myself to forgot for one second who I am now. I think that's a good thing. I feel stronger and more confident now. Maybe more like an adult than I wish I always was or had to be but there it is. Something in me has fundamentally changed and grown. No going back.
Hi Fluffster! Your momma shined the floor for you.
ReplyDeleteI loooove Pandora. I max out the hours every month. I didn't have a teevee growing up, I had my radio and recorded tapes. Music is a huge part of my life, particularly when I need help just going day to day. Music is an effective zoning out method for me. I do get lost in the music of my teenie bopper years still. 80s hair bands is a station!
While you were sitting on the bed with earphones, I was busy jumping on it like a dancing queen with my microphone belting out the weekly top 40. The ceiling in the living room below my bedroom had a bed-shaped crack.
I can't resist. jc
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OdQDXs75Ulo